Posted 3:43 AM by Robert
Yes, I'm updating my blog at 3 AM. I would've liked to be in bed by now, but I've been somewhat busy, between watching "The Rockford Files" and playing "GoldenEye" on N64. I've been trying in vain for the last week to get past the Silo level on 00 Agent. So close, yet so far . . .

I'm a little disappointed, because my Flyers lost in overtime to Calgary of all teams. At least we still got a point out of it. I think we're still in first place overall. Whatever the case, I've definitely learned in the last two days that there are more important things in life. I've also been using this same logic to convince myself that I don't need a girlfriend. After all, isn't that time, money, and energy that can be better spent on something like ministry and witnessing for Christ? Of course, having a girlfriend/spouse could be a part of one's ministry, so that reasoning leaves me right back where I started.

If you're wondering what's happening in the ongoing soap opera/daytime drama that is my life, "All the Days of the Bold and Baurawt While the World Turns," there's not much. Saw the girl today, didn't get a chance to talk to her. Won't see her tomorrow. Won't see her until next year. But I've been free and single for 19 years, so why change that now and upset the delicate nature of my little world? Exactly.

I know what you're thinking. "Stop moping about it. Pick up a phone and ask her out. Grow some . . . um, let's just say 'guts.'" I wish it were that easy for me to talk to the opposite sex. Then again, it's not that easy for a lot of people. I have an incredible fear of failure, which holds me back when it comes to matters such as this. I'm confident I'll get over it, it's just going to take some time. But hey, only four weeks until classes start again. That should be more than enough time to conquer my fear.

Whatever happens, I won't know about it until it happens. If I've learned anything over the last three months, it's that I have to keep God at the center of my life. Peter walked on the water until he took his eyes off of Jesus. As long as we have faith, we won't sink. I know that God's plan is better than mine, so I'll do whatever I can to follow it. I'll pray for His guidance, and do my best to live by it.

On that note, it's time for me to go to bed. I should be back tomorrow night, reporting live from my mom's apartment in Naperville! And a special report that might just save your family's life. Plus, the 15-day forecast! Okay, those last two things won't happen. But you get the idea.